"...each time you turn a corner you're right back where you were and you're only hope is that forgetting might make a door appear. is it your fear of being buried that makes you so afraid to speak. an avalanche of opinions like the one that fell that i'm now underneath it was my voice that moved the first rock but i would do it all again. so i mean it's cool if you keep quiet but i like singin. so i'll be holdin my note and stompin and strummin and feelin so very lucky. and there is nothing i know except this lifetime is one moment and wishing would just leave me empty. so you can try and live in darkness but you will never shake the light no it will greet you every morning and it will make you more aware with its absence at night when you're wrapped up in your blankets baby that comfortable coccoon. but i've seen the day of your awakening boy and it's coming soon. so go ahead and lose yourself in liquor and you can praise the clouded mind but it isn't what you're thinking no its the course of history your position in line. your just a piece of the puzzle so i think you better find your plate and don't go blaming your knowledge on some fruit you ate..."
-from "The Big Picture" by Bright Eyes-

this song is simply brilliant.
if you haven't heard it then go listen to it.

"...i am the cause to all your problems shelter from cold we are never alone. coordinate brain and mouth then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out. i wish i knew. i hope this song starts a craze the kind of song that ignites the airwaves the kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are with whoever they're there with..."
-from "Okay i believe you but my tommy gun don't" by Brand New-

gonna go get drunk
that's all

"...this is the grace that only we can bestow. this is the price you pay for loss of control. this is the break in the bend,this is the closest of calls. this is the reason you're alone, this is the rise and the fall..."
-from "Okay I believe you, but my Tommy Gun don't" by Brand New-

the sun is shining
or maybe it's an illusion
maybe our minds create sunshine.
maybe everything is consumed by darkness
and we will all die alone in the end

i saw a man with the universe in his hands
his eyes wide with wonder and awe
the man saw everything all in one moment
all of the hope that this universe possesses
all of the sadness and hatred ceized to exist

the man blinked and the sun dissapeared
he began to cry
realizing that it was indeed an illusion
the universe is not full of sunshine
and his heart died that day

but in that one moment
when his eyes glistened like crystals
all sadness of this universe seemed to dissapear
i never got the man's name; but it wasn't important
happyness, pure happyness is rarely enjoyed these days

but the rare glimpses of happyness
remind me of that man
and his childlike wonder
and i cherish that moment
even in this world so full of hatred

"Melancholic rain"

"... and it's hard to want to stay awake when everyone you meet they all seem to be asleep and you wonder if you're missing your dream..."
from the song "Bixby Canyon Bridge" by Death Cab for Cutie off the album Narrow Stairs

Rain crashes
like
snare drums and symbols
and all i hear is silence
a sound accompanied
with grief and sorrow
my mind clutters and clanks
and fills me with
thoughts racing
and all i can say is
nothing
my heart races and pounds
like
horses hooves thumping
and all i know
is loneliness
my body shakes and tingles
like
the earth does when it cries
and all that i see
is darkness
the epitome of
melancholy